Sunday, 11 January 2015

Open Doors for 2015

I'm usually not much for new year resolutions but what the hell.

I guess I'll just reflect and document on plans/goals for the year and see how they measured up at the end of the year.

Beginning 2015...


What can I say? I love my family. They have been nothing but supportive in the past year and I feel like I'm closer to them than ever before. We have no more secrets amongst us. Although the choices I have made do not coincide with the choices that my family wanted me to make, they still love me and that means the world to me.

As we've grown up and moved away, it has become harder to spend time together as a family but I'm grateful that in 2014 we were able to spend time together in March for my niece's baptism and in December for Christmas. While it may not seem like a lot of time during the long year, I'm grateful for the time we do have to spend together.

- visit my parents at least 4 times
- spend time together as an entire family twice


So if you've missed what's happened last year, here is the post that summarises my love life adventures recently.

Last week was a bit tumultuous when I found out that he deleted me on Facebook (it's funny how everything seems more real on Facebook - now I can feel my dad's pain when I blocked him on Facebook a few years ago). So this was the guy who asked if we could be friends after he just broke up with me and while I was trying to make sense of things deletes me on Facebook! I was quite furious to say the least. How could he? Were we not even friends now? Did he not even want to know what was happening in my life? I was so close to writing an angry post about it but I think it was at that moment things began to change for me. Perhaps this is what happens when you finally come to accept things. I felt like he has moved on and while I thought I had moved on, I hadn't - I was still secretly hoping he still cared and stalked my Facebook as often as I would stalk his to see what was happening in his life, (gosh I sound like a creep). I can proudly say that I have not stalked his Facebook or Instagram profile since and I'm content with that.

I feel like this song captured how I felt initially and now... I'm content with him being "somebody that I used to know".

'...but you didn't have to cut me off, make out like it never happened and that we were nothing.... I guess that I don't need that though, now you're just somebody that I used to know....'

So here's to one chapter closed and another one opening.

While I don't think I'm ready for love just yet, I do hope I will be able to fall in love somewhere along the line in 2015.

- fall in love


So I feel like I've totally slacked off last year in this department. You know how you have a few good friends and you're just content and not put in the effort to put yourself out there to make new friends? That was me.

I think I've already taken some plungers this year already though.

So, I hosted Family Feud for my department at work for Christmas last year and other departments heard about it. I subsequently got invited to host it for another department (twice the size of my original party with me only knowing about 3 of them). I think I may have just 'long jumped' out of my comfort zone. It wasn't too bad actually... I even scored a bottle of red wine as a gift for doing it ;) (anyone want a bottle of red wine??)

- don't say no to an invite for no good reason
- make 2 new good friends (friends that actually hang out together regularly)


If I haven't mentioned it before, I am currently a clinical social worker working in health and while I love my job, I feel like I want to experience other areas of social work and be challenged.

There are 2 areas of social work I've always wanted to steer clear of and that is mental health and child protection.... Guess what?! I want to try child protection now. Yep, call me crazy (I question that myself all the time ;)). I just feel like I would learn so much and whilst it is sad, there are a lot of children out there who need protecting.

So after much contemplation I decided I wanted to seriously give it a go and started on my application to work for protective services here in Australia. Wait. Curve ball coming. My supervisor at work suddenly resigned out of the blue leaving a more senior vacant position which are hard to come by. There are so many of my colleagues who are more experienced than I am but i decided to give it a go and if anything it's interview experience. So let's wait and see what happens.

- work for protective services OR get a promotion in my current field


I've decided this year is going to be the year of travelling.

Planning holidays are SO much fun! I've had a blast the last few days researching flights, how I want to fly, where I want to visit, where I want to stay, places I want to see, so on and so forth.

I've always loved travelling but for one reason for another it never pans out the way I want it to. This year, I've decided to just go ahead and do it. If no one else if organised enough to plan ahead then I shall do it alone (and it actually feels quite empowering!)

I will be visiting the US in November this year and I know it's still a fair ways away but if any Mohos would like to catch up while I'm there that would be awesome!

- travel to the USA


So I've just started my personal training again for the new year and I'm so mentally ready to go at it hard! I even went to the gym by myself yesterday without my trainer (now that's an achievement because I find it intimidating going to the gym without my trainer).

Whilst training may likely help with my chances of finding a partner, I think the most important aspect for me is boosting self confidence and health. 

- Fit into clothes the next size up
- Pick up a recreational sport
- Get ripped Be healthy

Church Faith

Last but not least. Probably the most difficult to analyse out of all because I don't exactly know where I want to be and probably the least tangible of the bunch.

For starters, I do want to distinguish the Church from my faith because I know that many Mormons will use the terms interchangeably, but I feel like they are separating for me. That's not to say I think the Church is wrong, simply because I feel separating the two will make it easy for me to process my thoughts.

- find God and develop a relationship with Him if He is there

So there you have it!

Anddddd.... here's my backup plan:


  1. I hope it's a great year for you!

    As I read your last couple of posts, it sounds like you are caught in the same conundrum in which I have found myself recently: It is hard to imagine God or faith outside of the Mormon church, but I am becoming more and more convinced that they really are separate things. I think it is good and healthy to come to know God outside of Mormon theology, but I too am still trying to figure this out.

    1. Thanks Blank Slate!

      It's quite an interesting experience being brought up in a Mormon family/community. I'm glad you're able to find more clarity and hope that you will continue to do so ;) Hang in there!!